To be completely honest, it used to freak me out also…and I am still hesitant to say the “P” word when talking to people for fear of them misunderstanding me. Unfortunately, there isn’t a better word that I have found to represent my connection to something outside myself. It doesn’t have to be God or a higher power or any other predefined (or monopolized term) by any other group currently in existence.
Spirituality = Religion?
I always associated spirituality and religion as being synonymous. I never realized you could be spiritual without being religious. That realization has changed my life forever as I now find myself doing self-talk to someone else and waiting for answers – that is what prayer is for me. That is how I understand spirituality. It is simply a structured thought thrown to the universe without expectation of an answer (or at least an immediate answer!).
What’s In A Name?
I have chosen to use God as the name to which I pray – and please note – nothing more. I could replace the word God with the name Sally if I am so inclined – the results would be the same. The important takeaway is that the name refers to anything but myself!
It’s Not WHAT You Say
I would also like to note that my prayers aren’t structured. I don’t have a saying like “God please help me / give me / fix me” that I repeat over and over. It doesn’t make that type of prayer wrong. As I said earlier, if I had a better word for prayer I would use it. My prayers are more of a bulleted list of people, places and things that I would like to put out into the universe.
My prayers today simply allow me to stop the noise in my mind from consuming my every thought. I am able to gain clarity of thought. I am able to properly respond to situations that used to confuse and baffle me. I am able to practice spirituality without expectation or rules. And for that I am extremely grateful.